up until now,  im still hoping that someday he'll realize that i love him .. im still waiting for him .. i know ill just have to wait .. patience larisa .. patience ..

sometimes i really hate love .. ano trip nito ngaun ? why i do i keep on falling in love with someone who is already taken ? ugghh !

i have been planning to have braces .. i guess ill ask my dentist about it once i return here in cebu from mindanao .. and yeah im also planning to have tattooes .. i dont care anymore what will people tell, anyway im single and its my money .. and my own decision .. and my happiness .. time to give myself an upgrade *wink*

im planning to change myself next year .. not my attitude but how i look .. i will still be the same ME but i just wanna change my style and add color to my boring life .. about lovelife?? ill pass .. not yet ready to love again .. and im enjoying myself even without someone to share life with .. but i do agree that sometimes it'll be more like it to have someone to do crazy stuff haha !! K.BYE :)

i have been looking for a song that would fit my mood as well as my feelings towards someone whom i like but is already taken .. i even asked my officemates and they sure gave their best to give me one but just yesterday i found the right song and this is for you (you know who you are).. 

SAY YOU LOVE ME by kyla and Jay-R .....

My morning starts to shine with teardrops in my eyes
And here I am alone starting to realize
That my days would be brighter, if I could learn to hide
The feelings that I have for you keep hurtin me inside

Then my days begin with simple thoughts of you
Hoping by tomorrow would be me and you
Sharing dreams with each other
And making them come true
Holding one another, saying all i need is you
 
But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when I need you, you will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This I swear is true, my love will always be with you

Now my nights would end with just one wish that's you
To hold me in the dark and help me make it through
Cause the pain that's inside me, would simply melt away
If I had you here with me and promise me you'd stay

But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when I need you, you will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This I swear is true, my love will always be with you

But will you say that you love me
And show me that you care
Say when I need you, you will always be there
But if you go and leave me
This I swear is true
My love will always
My love will always
My love will always ooh, ooh
My love will always be with you
Be with you  ❤`•.¸¸.•´´¯`•• .¸¸.•´¯`•.•●•۰• •

(¯`v´¯)
.`•.¸.•´ ★
¸.•´.•´¨) ¸.•¨)
(¸.•´(¸.•´ (¸.•¨¯`* ♥ CeeJee •۰• •

i pity myself ..

#FOREVERalone
#IGNOREDme
#itHURTS

JUST A REMINDER TO MYSELF :)

i need to download these anime...

☪ Magic Knight Rayearth
☪ Tsubasa Chronicles
☪ Hunter X Hunter 2011
☪ Cardcaptor Sakura

 FLAME OF RECCA

From the waters of our love
Feelings we cannot express rise up
It suddenly becomes painful
When I hear your ever-present voice
In order not to make sadness bloom
In order not to kill love
Run away, run away, wherever you may go
Shaking, shaking, let your heart shake as it is
No matter what suffering comes
If I’m with you, I can overcome it
Wind the key of dreams
And see a person’s sadness and strength
I’d give up anything to be the person who can be with you that much
In order not to get lost in tomorrow
In order not to forget today
I cannot see the dark, dark path
Shine, shine, someday the light will shine brightly
I won’t be afraid of anything
With you today, I’ll smile
Run away, run away, wherever you may go
Shaking, shaking, let your heart shake as it is
No matter what suffering comes
If I’m with you, I can overcome it

have u ever heard of a song that can make ur heart ache with no reason ?  ..that every time u listen to it you'll feel that kind of pain that u dont know where it come from ..that feeling that makes you cry and long for something so bad .. that moment that all u want to do is cry .. remember memories that is impossible to make again .. well, try to listen to Hunter X Hunter's 5th ending song entitled "Hiyori Ittai" by Yuzu .. aside from breaking my heart, it also reminds me of Mereum and Komogi's fate .. its really sad that they both died but atleast the ending was still happy since Komogi decided to die with Mereum .. i really cried watching that episode plus Gon is now about to die .. combo with Killua's sad face .. i still wonder what will happen with Gon and Killua ..

 

 

 

i've always wanted to look like a beautiful-geek-chic .. hahahaha ! for me, its very rare to see a beautiful geek coz they spent most of their time with books and stuff .. but oh well, tried my best to look one (and hey it doesnt mean im stupid .. and im being defensive HAHAHAHA !) ara ra ra ~~

GIRLS always remember to be CLASSY, SASSY, and a bit SMART ASSY ;)

our province's fiesta is on the 28th and 29th of september so i filled one week leave so i can attend it and i also wanna see my relatives there  coz it has been a year since i last saw them and i missed them :) im goin there with kyubi .. starting today i will render OT maybe 2-3 hours so i will enjoy my stay there .. cant wait ~ i am sooooooo excited ! hehehehe .. 2 months more and ill step on mindanao again :)

im having a huge crush with our neighbor .. not really sure if Louis is his name since i just heard someone calling that name the day i was drinking my coffee outside the house .. but i guess this will be another passing fancy coz we will be moving next year to the condo.. but he sure is cute .. and that night he smiled at me .. im like

hahahahahahahah !! makes me smile everytime i think about it ..  hmmmm ..  my crush is very simple .. he wears t-shirt and shorts only, slippers too .. and he's tall, white , has a long hair (shoulder level) and bangs that kinda cover his right eye .. i know he is friendly (not to me since we just moved here huhuhu) and oh ! i once saw him with a girl and im really like

WHY ?! WHYYYYY?!! hahahahahahaha .. poor me ..oh well, its just a crush 

 

 FINALLY ! HE'S HERE !! .. hello DATRIN .. welcome to the family .. he is sooooo tinyyy and kawaii ~~ kyaaaaa ~~ hehehehehe .. and now i am  his official baby sitter ! hahahahaha !!

this is the first time that i feel really tired .. that all i wanted to do is sleep for a week .. but i still have two days left to work ..  kyaaaaaaa ~ ~

photo taken on the 14th of June 2013 :) im so proud of this photo and whenever i see this, i feel so calm and brings memories of my childhood ..  

 ITAZURA NA KISS

 

LOVE SO LIFE

 

Shiharu Nakamura is a young high school student who loves kids, she lives in an orphanage, and works at a daycare to earn money for future expenses. One day, the handsome uncle of two-year-old twins, Seiji Matsunaga, offers her a raise if she'll be their babysitter, to which, Shiharu accepts his offer. As she works caring for the twins, Shiharu often relies on memories of her mother's actions for guidance, she soon finds herself falling in love with her new makeshift family. 

 

Read Here: http://www.mangareader.net/652-32631-1/love-so-life/chapter-1.html

(c) Mangareader  && wiki

yes .. im getting attention .. but not from someone that matters ..

belated HAPPY BIRTHDAY to AhZhi and my dear Kitty Love :)

isnt she a beauty :)

believe in wonderland

unspeakable secret ...

033014ZXT

Dear Crush,
Hi crush! :) remember I always say Hi whenever I get a chance to say it?

I got a confession to make. Well, I don’t think if I can still call this a confession since I’ve already told you about this. I can say that I’ve felt something special towards you the first time I laid my eyes on you. I got interested in you especially that moment when we were in a room with our other wave mates and I caught you texting then you smiled at me. I like the way you talk, you look and you smile. First day of our training, I was hoping that we can be friends not because I’m interested in you but because I want to know you more. 

As day passes by, I learned a lot about you. First is, you are in a same sex relationship which made me shocked because I wasn’t expecting that because it’s not obvious especially that you are so manly and gentleman to everyone. Remember that day when you asked me to change you but I refused? I refused not because I don’t want to change you but because I just met you, and I don’t  want to hurt your syota and I’m afraid I’ll develop a deep feelings towards you. I don’t want that to happen coz I’m afraid also that in the end, I will lose you. But you know, when you told me that you like me, I was really happy. Even now, if I think of that moment, it can still paint a smile on my face. That’s how special you are to me. Thinking of you makes me smile.

I can also remember our first hug. That was the day when our trainer separated us coz she noticed that we always do kulitan during our training (but for me, I call it lambingan. Hehehe) she transferred me next to her which is kinda far from you. And when we had our lunch in the pantry, you hugged me so tight and told me that you missed me. Made me kilig coz we are just in the same room yet you miss me. I know its wrong coz you are taken yet I kept on flirting with you. (Flirting ba jud xa na matawag ?? hmm .. I doubt it kc YOU LIKE IT DIN NAMAN .. bahahahaha ! )

Those days, I can still feel that you are feeling the same way as I do but during our nesting, everything changed. You changed. And the way you treat me also changed. Kumbaga, sa simula, uu nararamdaman ko pa na mahalaga ako sayo pero nung nag nesting na tau, nag iba lahat eh. Wala nakong na fefeel na special sa mga hugs mo. Parang pang kaibigan nalang, di katulad nung una, na fefeel ko talaga na sincere ka, na may sparks tlga. Siguro dahil nasanay ka na sakin. Medjo close din tayo sa isa’t isa at sa mga wave mates natin.   

I’ve been controlling myself. It’s been months, yes! And it’s really hard. So hard that every time I think of you, yes it makes me smile but it also makes me cry. I’m not sure when did it start but I know I love you.GIATAY ! (that’s why I hate love) I’ve been ignoring this feeling of mine but whenever I see you, I just can’t control myself. I can’t control myself from hugging you and papansin to you. And it hurts every time you talk about your syota, or when you talk about your past experiences, but most especially when you flirt with the girls in our office. I don’t know if its crazy or not coz I’ve been hoping that you’ll love me back (which is IMPOSSIBLE). Remember that night when you texted me that you want to pass your time in our home coz you and your syota argued? When we are in my room, I really wanted to comfort you coz I can really see how hurt you are and I can see the pain in your eyes but then again, I controlled myself coz I’m afraid that if I comfort you, I might do something stupid that I will regret. And I don’t want to take advantage of you.

I think it’s enough. I mean, I think I need to stop. This has nowhere to go. I love you, yes but I need to stop for me to move on. So starting today, I will stop hoping. I will stop loving you but I will continue being your friend. And I want you to know also that I enjoy every moment I spend with you. I enjoy every conversation we make. I cherish every moment that I hug you. And I also cherish those moments when we are just staring at each other and smile. Thank you because you brought excitement to my boring life and thank you also for playing a special role in my weird world. I know that the next time I will read this, it will definitely bring back memories and will make me smile.

Thanks JD :)


P.S

I want to dedicate this song to you…

>> Shower Me with Your Love - By: Surface

HAPPY FATHER'S DAY TO THE SUPERMAN OF MY LIFE .. yes Pa ! thats YOU !! :)

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